Sucking on the Blogging Front!!

Man have I been sucking with the blog lately!! Oh well here goes it!! Yesterday I did Rockin' Body Party Express and Hip Hop Abs Total Body Burn!! FUN FUN FUN!! I <3 Cardio so much. I need to be more consistent with P90x but because of my schedule being so busy...well mostly with so much work for school, I always choose cardio over P90x because of my want to shed fat being greater than my want or need to gain more muscle. It will all even out in the end I am sure. :)

Stupid Scale!!

I feel soooooo good lately!! I wake up and it feels like everyday I feel thinner and thinner. I have had an added boost of confidence and just have been feeling happier lately.

The only thing that I am mad about is that my stupid scale is broken. When the toilet flooded my apartment it ruined my digital scale, so now I have to get a new one. I haven't been able to weigh myself for weeks now and I am curious as to what it will say when I do!!!

:)

Keep X-ing it out folks!!!

P90x Blues - Week 1/Day 6

Now that I have been doing Hip Hop Abs and Rockin' Body it has been harder to get excited about restarting P90x. The cardio programs have made me feel great!! They make me excited, they get me smiling, they make me sweat, I am finally losing weight...they have done so much for me that when I turn on P90x now, I just feel like I want to be doing the other videos. LOL.

Oh well.

I still need weight training so I am doing P90x, I just hope that I get more results from it so I can be happy about that too. It's just that P90x is not fun. After doing all these fun workouts its so unmotivating to do P90x. I think also because I have gotten more results doing cardio and my half version of P90x then I did just doing P90x.

if that makes any sense.

I am going to stick it out for the 90 days then modify it to suit my fun factor. I think plyo and shoulders and arms are the only fun workouts for me. :)

Why do we have emotions? I hate being a girl.

Any chicks hate being girls?

My personality is such that I am more a tomboy when it comes to doing sports or working out. Even the way I joke and how sarcastic I am is more in tune with guys than with prissy chicks. I am not the one to put a dog in a purse or to match lipsticks to nail polishes, BUT i have the same emotional rollercoasters that all chicks have!!!

It is ridiculous!! A few times a month I get bitchy and hard to deal with. I get super emotional and think everyone hates me. I overreact and act like an idiot!! I HATE THIS

If anyone read my last 2 blogs, just ignore them!! I am being stupid today.

Grrrrrrr...

School started...

enough said.

busy.

:)

Restart - DAY 3

SHOULDERS & ARMS / AB RIPPER X
WOW!! Ok so I think everyone knows that Shoulder & Arms is my fave workout!! It makes me feel sooooo strong and I just love how my arms feel afterwards. My shoulders have always been on the bigger side and they tone up pretty fast so I love that!! Niiiice.

But by the time I got to ab ripper today I was exhausted!! I have know idea why!! I think its the new thing I am doing where I mute Tony and just listen to my Ipod!! Man, I am jamming in between sets!! A song comes on that I like and I just start dancing!! I guess thats more calories burned. LOL.

HAHA.

Anyway I am sooooo happy to be doing ALL of P90x now!!

Though my ass and inner thighs are killing today from Plyo!! It's a good sore though!! It's a "I worked my ass off" kinda sore!! I LOVE IT!! I feel so much lighter on my feet doing my workouts now. I think I am really toning up and thinning out some!! I am super excited!! Well its time to go sweat it out!!!

I think I am going to go do:
Hip Hop Abs - Fat Burning Cardio

Night All!! Don't Forget to...

X - IT OUT BABY!!

Todays Workouts...

early afternoon
1. Plyo - Holy Mother of God - I forgot how "cool" that workout was!

night time
2. Rockin' Body - Disco Groove ( I LOVE IT)
3. Hip Hop Abs - Ab Sculpt

fun time folks!

OK I Lied...

:)

Sooooo in my YT video I said I was going to start the P90x countdown over again on Monday but since I realized that I did the Chest & Back workout the other day, I just continued with Plyo today.

Whew. I haven't been able to do Plyo at all since my knee injury and today I go to do it. I almost forgot all the crazy stuff thats in there!! It was fun but my knee started getting a little tweaky towards the end so I modified and finished it up. My knee feels fine now.

I think I am going to go do a Rockin' Body dance video because I have been wanting to dance all damn day!! I was even dancing in between Plyo exercises!! LOL.

I have also tried a new thing where I put on my Ipod, and just watch the P90x videos because I can't stand Tony. I can't even stand hearing his voice anymore. He's such a show off TOOL! It makes me angry! Grrrrr...so now I just de-tony-ize P90x!!

Safe Ex Habits...

So, have you ever had that one ex that just made your skin hot and sweaty? That one guy [or girl] that no matter what you did you were always sooo turned on by them. Whether they were watching TV, out on the town, dressed up, dressed down, sleeping, or what not, they always seemed to draw you in??

I had one of those. I even thought for a moment that he was my muse [photographically speaking]. I thought he was the sexiest guy ever. It wasn't anything he did, he never HAD to do anything. All he had to do was just sit there, and I wanted him. It was amazing to be around someone that makes you feel like that, but lately I have been checking up on him and his new GF. Just glancing at myspace photos, no stalking involved [note title of blog]. :)

I know I know.

Shouldn't follow up on exes. lol. Well anyway I see photos of him and his new girl and it seems as though hes gone totally downhill. When him and I were together he was smokin' hot. I even loved the way he dominated my mirrors to get his hair just so!! Oooooh that hair!! Sexy. Anyway. Now I haven't seen a pic where he's even done his hair. He used to not leave home without some sort of product for it. He also has gained about 40 lbs. Not to say that I am shallow or what not. He's always been a bigger guy and I love that. But when we were together his chest, shoulders, and arms we so developed and just nice. He always wanted to hit the gym and always wanted to look good when I was around him. I just don't understand where this lack of care for his appearance is coming in.

I think it is the new chick. She doesn't seem to have much care for her outwardly appearance so does this rub off on people?? Maybe because I was always so put together, and looked so nice when we were together that he felt the need to do the same? I don't know, but I miss seeing photos of that hot, sexy, man that I was so head over heels for.

Is he gone forever?

;)

Workouts For Tonight:

1. Rockin' Body - Disco Groove (35min)
2. P90x - Chest & Back
3. P90x - Ab Ripper X

Workouts:

1. Rockin' Body - Booty Time (30 min)
2. Rockin' Body - Party Express (25 min)

WOW!

Sometimes I just workout and workout and workout.
These dance workouts really leave me wanting more afterwards!! LOL.

Tonights Workouts:

1. Rockin' Body - Rock It Out (45 min)
2. Hip Hop Abs - Fat Burning Cardio (30 min)
3. P90x - Shoulders & Arms

Whew!! Long Night. Time to pop in a movie and hit the hay!! Night Night!!

Don't Worry...

I AM STILL HERE WORKING OUT!! I lost my internet connection for a few days, that was rough. I live online. LOL.

Anyway I have been doing Rockin' Body more faithfully and have been feeling really good. I love the cardio. I think its what I really need right now.

I am NOT giving up on P90x, as I am still incorporating it into my hip hop abs and Rockin' Body workouts. :) I do need strength training just maybe not so much as P90x gives you. I am going to try to lose the fat first then I will do P90x all out to finish up sculpting what I need.

Tonights workouts:

#1 Shaun T's Dance Party - 45 min dance cardio
#2 P90x - Ab Ripper X

Ohhhh and you guys Rockin' Body - Rock It Out is NO JOKE!! OMG. That workout was crazy. I loved it. It was light weights combined with dance moves. Whew!!

Oh and any Beachbody peeps - log in to WOWY!! It's fun!!

Workouts Today:

Rockin' Body - Booty Time
P90x - Chest & Back

Rockin' Body is soooo much fun!! I definitely recommend it to anyone that wants cardio that is different. I hardly notice that I am working out because I am focused on learning the moves and dancing. When I wake up in the morning I have been sore!! It's great. You sweat and there are some cute cute people on the videos. :)

Workouts Today:

Hip Hop Abs - Fat Blasting Cardio
Rockin' Body - Disco Groove
Rockin' Body - Hard Core Abs

When I was doing these I didn't even feel like I was working out, I guess I just like to dance! It's so fun and I am addicted to Shaun T, he isn't annoying like most workout people on videos!! He is fun, and has a ton of energy. Oh and obviously he has a body that you wouldn't mind staring at all day long.

FINALLY!!!

So after hurting myself, my knees finally feel better for the first day in a couple weeks!! I am not getting back on the running kick just yet though. I will give it a couple days but I am going to go do hip hop abs and p90x RIGHT NOW!!!! WOO HOO!!!

I AM BACK!!
I AM ON BREAK!!
FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS I WILL BE KICKING @$$, my ass!!!

UPDATE

So I graduated today...errrr walked. I am actually done in December but my school is on quarters and only does 1 graduation per year. It was fun. My parents came and that was awesome. Tomorrow we are going sightseeing and such.

My knee is still sore when I walk, I have no idea why it's still like that!! Grrr. I am finishing up a couple of projects then im done with the quarter. uugghh. I am going to concentrate on trying to do as much working out [and photography] as I can this break so we will see how that goes. Super.

Updates on the workouts!!

Ok so last night I did...

1. Hip Hop Abs - Fat Burning Cardio
2. Rockin' Body - Mark, Move, and Groove
3. P90x - Chest/Shoulders/Triceps & Ab Ripper X
(yes, I did these in a row)

Tonight I did...

1. Hip Hop Abs - Secrets to Flat Abs
2. Hip Hop Abs - Fat Burning Cardio
3. Rockin' Body - Party Express
(in a row like last night)

Yeah it may seem like I am a working out maniac but one after another is just sooo addicting. The cardio dance routines just make me want to dance more!! It is sooo fun. I don't feel like I am getting a great workout but I am having so much fun. Ohhh and I am inputing all my workouts into WOWY. That is addicting in itself!! LOL.

I am having to ice my knees right now, but these stupid knees are not going to keep me from doing cardio. I CANNOT do plyo so that is why I am incorporating the other stuff. My knees only hurt to jump around and to run, They don't hurt doing lunges or kneeling on them. So that is good.

I am going to keep doing the weight training parts of P90x but after the knees feel better I am going to start Week 7 over for real. Modify Modify Modify right? The good paart is that I am not falling off the wagon completely. It would be so easy to say ohhhh my knees are killing me I just won't workout, but I can't do that. I am finally changing my habits for good and I am not quitting ever again!! I don't care how long it takes me to get into the shape I want to be in, but I will get there!! I am determined!!

Oooooh good news also, I signed back up on ModelMayhem.com and I am going to be scheduling model shoots with some local models around here again!! I am pretty excited!! My break will be super fun if I get to do a few shoots. I think I am also going to sign up on a few stock photography sites and do some shooting for that, maybe earn a couple extra pennies!! LOL. I may also be going to a model/photographer meet and greet in the suburbs to network, if I am not busy. :)

Well thats about all for now!!
X it out!!

Hip Hop Abs...

So I tried this today, and it was pretty fun. Shaun T makes me laugh and I smiled the whole way through. I didn't sweat as much as I would have liked and I don't know how high my heart rate got but it's so fun so I will stick with it as a morale booster!! It definitely makes me laugh at myself. I consider myself to be pretty coordinated but these dance moves are kinda awkward for me. LOL. I was a dancer but not a hip hop dancer. LOL.

:)

Knees...

That one day that I did a longer run was a great day. I felt so proud of myself but yesterday when i went to run again and the first few steps were complete and utter agony. My knees killed like no other. They didn't seem to hurt all week but when i tried to go jogging they killed. Being the proud kind of person I am, I couldn't just quit so I ran anyway through the pain and all. I probably shouldn't have because when I woke up this morning I could hardly walk. Let's just say I am not running again anytime soon. I am going to try to ice them and see what happens. I just hope this is a bump in the road and not the end of my running, I was really looking forward to it.

:(

One Week...

I have one week of school left and I need to crank out these projects. I have to make a 22 page Brand Standards Manual, A campaign of 4 ads for kneaded erasers, a campaign of 3 ads for the Juicy Juice brand that I redesigned, do a web portfolio site, and design and construct new packaging for Folgers. Grrrr...these classes are kicking my ass. Being a senior sucks ass. lol. Anyway I will be so busy the next 4 days that I won't be able to sleep let alone remember to exercise. I will continue Week 7 after I am successfully on break for 2 weeks!! I will concentrate all my efforts on working out and getting into better shape for the whole 2 weeks of my break. I will hopefully do some more running, continue p90x, and start hip hop abs!! I am stoked for break!!

I am not graduating in June but I am graduating in December so I have to walk in June. Our school is on quarters, we go year round, and My parents are coming so that should be great!!!

I Hate Love (awesome quote)

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

Awesome!!

I just tracked my Beachbody package and ups says that it scanned into Chicago at 2:55am!! I am pretty excited! That means I could be doing a Hip Hop Abs session as early as today!! Watch out!! :) I am actually planning on running tomorrow/today, so we will see if I have time for the dance workout!! I am sure I will try and make time because it seems like it will be tons of fun.

Rock On!

"Cheat Days"...

When I get into a health kick, I can honestly say that I don't have "Cheat Days", unless thrown off by seemingly awesome but just really charming guys. I have always known that cheating can wreak havoc on your progress, but hearing someone else say it puts the fear of god into me!! LOL. I just watched a You Tube video from a Dr, stating that having a "Cheat Day" can negate all progress you have made in a whole week. He said that you should have just a cheat meal if you are going to cheat. Having a whole cheat day is just too risky. You have to burn 500 extra calories per day just to lose one lb in a week, but in a day you can consume enough calories to gain that lb back. It is horrible but it is true. When I have a cheat, it is usually just one or two things that I am craving and I make sure to stay within my calorie range. That way I realize that eating crappy foods means you have to eat way less!! Its psychological. If I eat good foods I can eat way more food for my calorie intake. :) Then there are always the people that eat really healthy but eat too much, it's like they think that because they are eating really healthy foods, they can eat as much of it as they want and then they wonder why they aren't losing and are in some cases gaining weight. Good foods have calories too, people!!

Running Update...

Like I have said, I have started a jog/walk program because I want to be a runner. I have asthma, was a smoker, and have a mind set that I cannot run very well. I have been trying very hard to increase my lung capacity so that I can run for further and for longer periods of time. I started out at Run 1min/Walk 1min and increased up to Run 4min/ Walk 1min for 30 minutes at a time. I thought I was doing fairly well with this, but it proves to be really difficult to start running then walk then start running again. I think the plan has you do this because it is difficult so that when you go to run a full half hour at the end of 8 weeks, it will be a breeze! Ok so on to yesterday, I went out to do my run. I started running and I guess I had a lot on my mind because I immersed myself in my thoughts. The next thing I knew I was feeling great and just kept jogging. The first time i looked at my stopwatch it said 12 minutes!! I was like holy crap. I guess I had magically fallen into a semi comfortable pace and groove, I just wanted to keep running to see how far I could go. It was so excited. I was running just for me, I was clearing my head, and most of all I was feeling incredible!! For the first time ever I had that feeling that I knew running could always give me, but never got. I guess I was never patient enough to keep at it to feel that. I was in control of my run, I was breathing hard and sweating but it wasn't killing me. I didn't want to stop!! I had plans that night so I did stop after 20 minutes of straight jogging!! I have never jogged for 20 minutes straight EVER in my life. It was really one of the most exciting things ever. I just felt an immense amount of pride in what I had done. Now I know I can do it, and if I can do it you can too!! Keep bringing it, folks!! YAY for jogging!!

Oh and I am going to continue to follow the Run/Walk program but also a couple times a week I am just going to do a straight jog to see how far I can go.

GROCERIES!!!

OMG...I love grocery day!! I was coming down to having no food at all!!! I order groceries from Peapod.com because living in the city with no car is hard on grocery shopping. Either you have to pay to take a cab if you buy a lot, or you have to buy little and walk or bus it. Also getting the groceries up to the apartment is a chore. We don't have normal elevators we have ancient ones that the gates slam on you or half the tme they don't work. Carrying groceries up 6 flights of stairs does not sound fun. LOL. ANYWAY I get them delivered and it's awesome!! It's a $9 delivery charge for orders between $50 - $100 and anything over $100 order is $6. It's definitely worth it. I always buy more than $100 because I get groceries once a month. I got some good eats today!! Mmmmm...natural peanut butter, sprouted grain bread, tuna, bottled water, chicken breasts, turkey burgers, romaine lettuce, string cheese, organic fat free plain yogurt, oranges, grapes, tomatoes, sprouted grain tortillas, Egg Beaters egg whites, natural no sugar added applesauce, low sodium V8, Boars Head Deli Meats, veggie burgers, rice cakes, organic spinach/feta pockets for school, fat free cottage cheese, oraganic corn salsa, brown rice, frozen veggies, ooooh and all natural chicken artichoke pizza with a whole wheat crust. mmmmm...

Of course I always have to get myself a treat because if I don't have some low calorie sweet treats I will go out and splurge on something that is probably high fat and super bad. So I try to keep No sugar added fudgesicles on hand. :) I also got some Haagen Dazs Brazilian Acai Berry Sorbet!!! You should all try it. Bon Bon Recipe using this sorbet!! YUM!!

Oh and Chase is splurging with me too, I got him some peanut butter Frosty Paws ice cream for dogs because it is sooo hot out right now.

Photo time...

So if you read my blog a lot you will probably notice that I changed my photo. lol. I do that all the time due to the fact that I have photography equipment and a desire to have ever changing photos of me!! I am pretty much addicted to taking photos of myself. I am actualy my most reliable model anyhow so why not!! I took a few the other day and the one I posted on here is pretty much a good representation of who I am, I also take other photos to show different sides to my personality. Taking photos for me can be dress up time, stress reliever time, increase my self-esteem time...i basically take photos to fill the gaps in my life. It is very therapeutic for me and I enjoy it very much!! So without further ado here is another photo I took that is a little out of the ordinary look for myself, but I love it. Enjoy and comment if you'd like.

XOXO

Update...

I am really getting into this jogging thing!! I have stuck with it longer than I have ever stuck with jogging before!! I think because I have started out easy and I jog at night. I usually head down to the running path that is by the lake but the past few nights I haven't gotten out there until after midnight so I run the streets. It's really nice around here at night. I don't like doing it during the day because of all the people, they annoy me. I am still doing P90x, I just am more excited about the cardio stuff!!

I got a conformation that Hip Hop Abs has shipped, I can't wait!! I love to dance so it should be fun fun fun.

Myspace...

I guess getting into my myspace is a chore...lol. I knew it was private but I forgot that I made it so that non-friends couldn't message me or add me. what the heck was I thinking?? Anyway, that is all fixed now. Anyone can add me or send me messages so don't be a stranger!!

New Workout!!

So I need a lot of cardio and decided to get some more tapes so that if I cannot jog then I will have something to do that won't bore me. Today I ordered Hip Hop Abs just to see if its fun. I love to dance and Shaun T. doesn't seem to be all that hard on the eyes so we will see!! I am pretty excited. Fun Fun Fun.

Happy Fcuking Birthday!!! June 2nd!!

I get to go to school all day long!! 8am - 8pm.

Go to my myspace and add me as a friend if you have it, the link is in the bar over there
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That would be a fun Birthday present!! More friends!! YAY!! Then leave me a comment. ;) HAHA.

Cardio Rocks!!

So I jumped on the scale this morning because when I weighed myself for the week yesterday it was in the middle of my day and guess what? I didn't lose 3 lbs, I lost 4!!! Woo Hoo!! Ok I am never stopping cardio ever again. I am in such a better mood now that I started losing some weight. Hopefully I will look great in no time flat!!

A Saturday Night With Christy...

My saturday night was spent at the sporting good store getting new sneakers, and a stop watch for my jogging program. Then at midnight I proceeded to go down to the lake path and do a jogging routine wih my new purchases. It felt great and I am so glad I got new sneakers. I haven't gotten new ones in like 3 or 4 years!! That is not good for your feet by the way!! So don't wait that long!! I used to be a shoe salesperson at a sporting goods store. lol. I am really excited about this jogging program. I started out doing 2 minutes jog 1 min walk but after 20 minutes i changed it back to 1 min jog 1 min walk. I am not a runner by any means but hopefully this program will slowly ease me into running and I will adapt well to it. We shall see. I am not going to give up though. I am going to do the full 8 weeks.

(see blog a few below for jogging/walking program)

YAY!!! FINALLY!!

I guess chasing my dog around the park last night paid off because I am down 3 lbs this week!! I have a feeling the lower calories and cardio is taking its toll!! I am not doing low carb anymore either because I never seem to lose weight on low carb!! I once did Atkins and all I got from that was terribly ill. Mu ex husband and I did it for over a month and he lost and I didn't at all. I just felt so sick and gross inside. So maybe my body likes the carbs, good for me though.

Motto For Today...

Week 6 - Day 1

CHEST, SHOULDERS & TRICEPS / AB RIPPER X
So I was sooo tired after trying to run with my doggy and then losing him and trying to catch him that I didn't know if I would be able to finish this workout (see blog entry before this for my overview of today). Even though I felt crappy, depressed, and tired I still managed to push play. I knew that I wasn't feeling as strong as usual but I pressed through and did my best. I told myself that if I just finished the workout then I would do Ab Ripper in the morning. By the end of the DVD I felt guilty for even thinking that so I pressed through Ab Ripper also.

What I learned today was that no matter what kind of day I am having, I can always finish my workouts if I just believe in myself.

I get a Gold Star for today!!!

Crappy Day

I think I am cursed or something. I had the shittiest day today.

I started working on projects and couldn't concentrate because a person that I care for deeply has stopped talking to me, and by talking I mean telling me stuff about his life and what's going on. He never texts anymore and has ignored my texts. I get the feeling I should just give up. I don't understand how we could (i think) get so close then he just disapears. Oh well. Anyway I was pretty broken up about that all day...

...then a friend of mine who was being a bitch told me she didn't want to be my friend because I told her that she was being a bitch. Go figure. I thought that since we are 26 years old that she could handle the truth. She just proceeded to be a self absorbed asshole and made me feel like crap for nothing!! I really don't need that when I am trying to do school work...

...then I realized that I think I have an infection on my tonsil. It's really huge and covered in white gunky mess. No health insurance is really going to cover that!! SUPER!!

After that I decided I wanted to go jogging and figured maybe my dog would like to go. lol. so we went and we got to the beach and he started chasing something...yanked away from me and his leash broke. yep the cord snapped in half just like that. I waas due for a new one but i hadn't picked one up yet. Anyway...I had to chase him and was scared to death he would run out towards Lake Shore Drive (which is basically a highway). So we couldn't run back we had to walk and I had to drag him by what was left of the leash. Then we were close to getting back when he went running after an animal or something and the leash totally tore up my hand as it went with him. I then had to chase him again, this time a lot longer because he ran far away.

Then I got back and now I have no energy to do Chest, Shoulders, and Triceps. I just felt really depressed and wanted to change my mood by working out and all this shit happened. uuugghh. I just wanted to have a good day. :(

Grrrrrrr...

All this extra cardio and reduced calories better jump start my weight loss or I will not be a happy camper!!! Rawwwwwer!!

Week 5 - Day 6&7

Yesterday was something else. LOL. I stayed up almost all night finishing projects and stuff then I went to school for 15 hours...uuugghhh. Senior Year is a biotch!!! Expecially because every class I have this quarter are core classes where its all projects that have to be portfolio quality. So it's one project after another...Identity packets, websites, logos, campaigns, ads and more ads. It's a cool major but it's definitely a time consuming one!!

Anyway long story short I was falling asleep by the time I go home, I tried to workout but I decided it wasn't going to be that effective so I got a good night's sleep and woke up today and did Kenpo X. I still HATE it!!! Ugghh. I don't know why I dislike it so much. I think because the beginning and ending are boring. I like the kicks and they get my heart rate up but the punches and blocks don't. I have a 30 minute Kickboxing workout that kicks my ass more than Kenpo does. I think I might do that tonight. I really want to come home from school tonight and go running. I need to get me a stop watch. Timing on my phone is less than ideal. LOL. I also need to get some more protein powder.I have been out and I have not been getting nearly enough protein. I am not a big meat eater. I like chicken and turkey but thats about it. I am stopping by GNC tonight before I get home and getting both of those before I forget!!!

So In short I am using yesterday as my rest day, even though there was no resting or stretching involved, and tomorrow I will start WEEK 6!! I thought I would never finish week 5 but I did!! YAY!!

Week 5 - Day 5

Here we go back on the countdown. I have started the 5th week over for the second time now. I am glad to finally be back on track with this. No more disasters from now til the end. I might even tack on a couple extra weeks at the end just for fun.

Stay Tuned!!!

LEGS & BACK / AB RIPPER X
It has felt like ages since I have done this workout. I forgot some of the exercises that you do in it. LOL. Overal I have always liked this workout. I still fall over during the lunges with your foot up on the chair...uuugghhh. I don't think I have bad balance but I seem to have problems with that exercise.

I am starting to use my chin up bar now that Dave fixed it all up for me!! :) I can't do chin ups or pull ups or anything of the sort but I do use the chair and it seems to be working pretty well. We will see. I would love to be able to do pull ups on my own!! Hopefully someday. Maybe my next round or maybe when I do P90x+. :)

I have been using Fit Day to track my food intake and I have no problems staying in my calorie range but I need more protein and more vegetables!!! FOR SURE!! Ugghhh I always forget about vegetables. I ran out of protein powder and its amazing to see how little protein I get when I don't have it!!! I love being able to calculate all this stuff, it really puts everything into perspective and just makes you more aware of what you are putting into your body.

Cardio Makes Me Feel Super!!

I was supposed to do Yoga today and I was feeling a little too fat for Yoga today. I really wanted more of a cardio workout so I put in my Jillian Michaels Cardio Kickbox workout and let me tell you...I forgot what a cardio workout that is. Yeah it isn't an hour long like P90x vids but it is non-stop moving and is just a good cardio workout. I was sweating and breathing harder than I have in most P90x workouts.

I really hate doing cardio but it makes me feel soooo good!!

Super Duper!! Since I need to get rid of more fat, I need it!!

:)

Excited to start the Run/Walk - 8 Week Program I found on Runnersworld.com!!

CLICK ON IMAGE TO SEE IT LARGER

Feel Sooooo Much Better!!!

Working out just makes me feel good!!! I am going to be less worried about how long it takes me to finish P90x and more interested in getting my body to where I want it. I think focusing on others progress and comparing it to my own is very detrimental to my success. I feel like I should be at a different level than I am, and if I am not where I think I should be then I end up quitting.

Being thrown off the P90x wagon for 2 weeks did a number on my self-esteem and my mood. I felt pretty much worthless and like I was a huge failure. Now that I am back on track I see people that started after me doing better than me and it totally wrecks me. I know if I didn't succumb to the pressure to fall off the wagon then I would probably be in a lot better shape right now and I wouldn't feel like total crap.

But I did fall off the wagon and now I just have to deal withit, get back on, and pick up the slack. I am going to eat the way that I know works for me because the p90x food thing has not been working. I don't know what it is but I just don't feel like I have any energy, maybe lack of carbs. I nomally eat really healthy so I am just going to follow my own plan that I know works for me. I am also starting a running plan. I have always wanted to run and never thought I could. I think it is because I want to be able to just go out the first time and run a few miles. Now that I know that isn't doable and will actually turn me off to running, I have downloaded a running plan off a running website. It gets you ready to run for a full 30 minutes in a couple months. It is really what I need because if I can ease myself into it gradually and become good at it then I will definitely stick with it. It is one of the cheapest workouts ever and you can do it anywhere, all you need is shoes. :)

I have also been looking into some upcoming races and even training sessions for the upcoming Chicago Marathon and Half-Marathon...we will see how ambitious I get.

So I just did my
BACK & BICEPS / AB RIPPER X
workout and tomorrow I will be starting my easy Run/Walk program to get me ready to run a 5K in 2 months time. From the couch to a 5K!! YAY!! I will keep you updated on how I do.

Just a confused rant, you don't have to read it...

sometimes I think i know about the things that are going on in my life, and sometimes i am just really confused. i HATE being confused about things. i like to know exactly what is going on and what's going to be going on especially if its something important to me. i just feel like my life is hanging in the balance and i am just waiting for something to happen. i just constantly feel like im waiting for good stuff to finally happen. after going through so much bad stuff i feel like this universe owes me some friggin happiness. i know that i need to make things happen in my life but i can only do so much then the rest is dependent upon other factors that i cannot control. i just have been so shaky and feel like i have been waiting for my life to happen for so long.

sometimes i feel like i cannot keep waiting or keep surrounding myself with people that don't give me answers, don't supply me with the things i need, and people who just keep me in the waiting/confused state. i don't know. maybe i just want to know what's going to happen so that if something isn't going to work then i can have a backup plan and not just be blindsided...like i usually am. i want more control but i don't get it.

2nd Day of Week 5 Redo

Ok so I thought after I came back from being on and mostly off for 2 weeks that I would be really rusty...well I am not that bad. Granted I am a little more soft and flabby but I actually felt rested and like I had more energy than when i did when I was pushing it doing P90x everyday. Who knows what that means. LOL. Hopefully it doesn't mean I will be more inclined to fall off the wagon again.

Anyway. I am really glad to be getting back on track, and to all my You Tube peeps I haven't forgot about ya...I will make a update after this first week back. :)

Anyway I have a crap ton of work to do for school so I am off...

Goodnight and Good Luck!!

Ummmmm...I lied... I am back for good NOW!!!

Jeeeeez!!!! I have been derailed for WAY too long!!! I got back on track then I got clotheslined off the wagon again. It's amazing how when the one person that motivates you the most cannot do the workouts it makes you fall off that much easier. It just kinda makes you feel like its ok to not be so strict on the program because they are on a hiatus and they still look great. LOL. Oh well. NO MORE OF THIS BS!!! I am back on track.

I had a great couple of weekends though. Having a friend in town is just a mood booster even though we didn't eat and workout like we should have.

:)

I am not sure what workout I should do tonight. I did Shoulders and all that the other day but I should start Week 5 over, I think I am just going to continue with Plyo tonight. Keep me on track guys!!!

WEEK 5 REDO!!!

I AM BACK ON TRACK!!!

I started Week 5 over today!!! I have been eating like crap and not doing my workouts the way I should so Week 5 here I come again!! I didn't want to miss any of these newer workouts so I wanted to redo this week.

I did...
CHEST, SHOULDERS & TRICEPS / AB RIPPER X
...today (errrr yesterday)!!

LOVE THIS WORKOUT MORE THAN ANYTHING!!! I just wish it would burn fat too. LOL. I think tomorrow I am going to get up early and try some running, I am getting sick of Cardio X and it's getting nicer outside.

:)

OK BACK UP...REVERSE

I am starting Week 5 over again. I had an amazing weekend but I feel that I haven't gotten enough out of Week 5. I just feel like I didn't give it my all so tomorrow I will be starting the week over. This week should be awesome. We will see.

Day 34

Week 5 - Day 5

I am sucking on this week so badly, I may just redo it. I am not doing as badly as I may think but I just feel so out of it. Grrrrrr...I think it may have a lot to do with other people's motivation as well. On You Tube there are a lot of slackers lately and everyone seems to have an excuse for skipping workouts so I have been less than motivated. I think I am going to wean myself off of You Tube a little bit because of it. I just don't feel as motivated on there as I used to be. I need to start doing this for myself and trying to gather motivation from within instead of from others that are unreliable. Sometimes I just don't see the point of trying to motivate everyone when I am not feeling motivated. Blahhh. I am not into trying to gain popularity on there, all I want is to want to workout. All I want is to get into shape and have it be as painless as possible.

Just my thoughts for this morning.

It is 2:20 am and I am just now getting myself in the mood to put in my workout for today. Uuugghhhh why do I procrastinate sooo much???!!!!

LEGS & BACK / AB RIPPER X

Day 33

Week 5 - Day 4

i have sucked this week...at the blog and at working out. I can't believe it. I have this great thing going on tomorrow and I soooo could have benn looking better than this. I really have no excuses, I just haven't been feeling well. I skipped out on Yoga today and did Cardio instead. Oh well. I was having a fat day and thought it would be more beneficial to how I was feeling.

Day 32

Week 5 - Day 3

I forgot to blog about this day!! OOOOOPS!!

BACK & BICEPS / AB RIPPER X
This workout rocked!! I loved it. There was a lot of bicep exercises for sure. I think my biceps and shoulders are my fave muscles to workout!! I didn't want to workout but I just did it and I felt good!! Woo Hoo.

:)

Day 31

Week 5 - Day Skip

I haven't boarded the bus on the give up train yet but my motivation has started going downhill again. I have no idea why this happens. Grrrrr...I was in a sucky mood for a week then I turned it all around for a week and rocked it, now I am back on the moodiness. I guess because I have images of what I want to look like and what state of health I want to be in and I am definitely not close yet. I know as long as I don't give up I can get there but with my attitude being where it is, I don't know. It is 2:50 am and I haven't done my workout yet. I ate like shit today and felt it!!! I had more carbs than usual and I was dead tired all day. I wanted to workout when I had energy but that energy never came. I think I am just going to double up tomorrow to get caught up then NO more mess ups. I think its because I only have 3 days until I wanted to look at least a little better and yeah I don't see much difference. I think I am just a little disheartened and not motivated because of it...kinda like what has working out and eating right got me lately??? But on the flip side the more I mess up, the less results I will see. Of course I am way harder on myself than need be. We all slip up and my slip ups aren't even all that bad. I just need to get in control of my emotions and thoughts. LOL. Oh well. I know it will get better and I will start feeling good about myself in no time.

Stay focused and motivated and most of all,

X-IT OUT!!

Day 30

Week 5 - Day 2

PLYOMETRICS
I love this workout but this week I just seem to be losing motivation again. I think it is because I have been feeling bad health wise. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that I am not sleeping all that well or all that much. lol. Also my stomach seems to be reacting negatively to protein bars. I have been getting insane stomach pains after eating them so I guess I am going to stop all that. I have been finding it hard to eat much at all beacause of the pains. My workouts don't suffer that much but my body probably is. I still workout at high intensity so thats a plus. I am supposed to take Day 30 pics but I feel bloated today maybe tomorrow will be a better day for that. We will see. I still think I am just going to forego showing photos until the end.

:)

Day 29

Week 5 - Day 1

CHEST, SHOULDERS & TRICEPS / AB RIPPER X
What a cool workout!! love it!! I still can't believe that there are more styles of pushups we haven't done!! I suck at pushups but hopefully I will only get better. I feel like I lost a lot of strength during the recovery week. Some of the tricep exercises, I felt like I was doing for the very first time...uuuugghh. oh well. we will see what happens. I did do a lot better at Ab Ripper yet again so my abs gained some more strength which I am happy for the most!! Who doesn't want some ripped abs?? I know I do!! I can't wait!! MORE CARDIO!! I missed my extra cardio session this morning so I will do Cardio X when I wake up and then Plyo at night.

Here we go!! Week 5 is in the works!!
Sooo excited to be doing weight training again.

X-It Out!!

Day 28

Week 4 - Day 7

Last day of my recovery week!! Tomorrow I start new weight training workouts!!! YEAH!!! I am excited!! Chest, Shoulders, and Triceps!! My fave muscles!!

Anyway I know I said that my muscle gaining and fat losing has caught up to itself well like I said I have only lost 3 lbs as it shows on the scale, but I have lost almost 2 inches off my waist and 1 inch off my hips so I am incredibly happy about that!! It hasn't even been a month yet so I need not worry about that stuff after my body gets on a roll I am sure the fat will just come off in no time!!

Here is a pic of how my upper ab muscles are shaping up, I am pretty excited even though you can see them due to the lighting. LOL. I just need to lose the buffer over them so you can see them better!! Overall I am very happy where this is heading!! You can kinda see some lats coming in too!! I still have like 8 weeks to go!! Let's do this!!

:)

Day 27

Week 4 - Day 6

I only slept for 2 hours wednesday night then I had school from 8am - 8pm yesterday. By the time I got home I was dragging and did not want to suck on Yoga so I decided to flip the Stretch/Rest day with my Yoga day. I tried to do the Cardio X video but I fell out and decided to get some sleep instead!!!

I also cheated a little...ooooooh don't tell anyone.

HAHAHA

I felt ok about it because I didn't go over my calories for the day, not by a long shot. I did have 1 scoop of Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream from Baskin Robbins because it was 31¢ scoop day!!! YAY!! 1 scoop of any ice cream for 31¢!! My friends and I are poor college students so it was rockin'!! Anyway, that was my cheat. I have been doing completely awesome otherwise!! Oh and just to let everyone know the weight loss has finally started. I know I have been a muscle gaining machine but the muscle gaining and fat losing has caught up to itself!! Woo Hoo.

Day 26

Week 4 - Day 5

CORE SYNERGISTICS
YAY!! I love this workout!!! It rocks and I was finally able to do a few Dreya Rolls!!! WOO HOO!! I couldn't do any the first day!! I had a pretty relaxing day! I have to get caught up on some homework but other than that this week has been going good!!

Main Motivation?? 1 Week and 3 Days!!! I cannot wait!! I have something fun and exciting going on!! It will rock my socks!!

Day 25

Week 4 - Day 4

I was going to go running this morning but it was super cold and downpouring!! I am getting ready to do the Cardio X video instead for fun. I am supposed to be doing the X-Stretch video for my workout, and I will do that tonight after school. I just wanted to get in some cardio today also.

I hope all my P90x buddies are Bringin' It today!! I know I am.
Good Luck and HAPPY MONDAY!!

:)

Day 24

Week 4 - Day 3
KENPO X
Ok so my abs, back, and legs are screaming for some TLC today, but no such luck...lol. I had Kenpo today. It is a good workout and I sweat a lot, but I just don't like it at all. My motivation to do it is because it is cardio and I need cardio. Oh well. Anyway...this program is sooooo well planned out!! It amazes me. I am sitting here thinking "man do my legs and back need some stretching" and I checked my schedule...tomorrow I have X-Stretch!! Couldn't have come at a better time!!! Woo Hoo. I am sure that is done on purpose because after doing a brand new workout you are going to be sore and the second day is most likely going to be the worst so there it is!!! Niiiiice. So X-Stretch tomorrow then I get to do Core Synergistics AGAIN!!! YAY!!! I am loving the recovery week!!

So on the diet, today I sucked sooo badly. I didn't count calories or keep track of what I was eating all day. Right after my workout I was feeling a little blah and thought maybe I should have the recovery drink even though I decided not to use it. Before I did that though I wanted to make sure I was within calorie range. I calculated all my calories and come to find out I had consumed 900 calories today...NOT GOOD!!! Not good at all, so I decided I did need some mre cals and shook up a recovery drink for myself. I wasn't hungry that much today, but I still need to work on eating more. I don't have a very good relationship with food so eating isn't my fave thing to do when I am trying to get in shape. Oh well. I am going to make up a plan and try to stick with it. What I eat and when I am supposed to eat it so I don't have excuses. We shall see. I have done that before, but still fell by the wayside.

Good Luck to all my P90x buddies
X - IT OUT!!!

Day 23

Week 4 - Day 2

CORE SYNERGISTICS
Ok so today I was sooo excited to do this workout!!! I was stoked!! I did it and I LOVED it!! I think I have found another one of my soon to be favorite workouts!!! By the end of it I was dead to the world!!! On the last exercise in the "bonus round" I was barely lifting my legs but I finished as strong as I could, and for the first time in a couple weeks I was stoked to workout again!!!! WOO HOO!!! Anyone that has been following my vids on You Tube knows that I have had a rough week or two with actually being excited about this program, well no need to worry anymore!!! I just got fired up again!! Thanks to Core!! SUPERMAN!! BANANA!! SUPERMAN!!! BANANA!! :) I suck at some of those pushups and I can't do a Dreya roll to save my life but ehhhh I will get there, gotta start somewhere. I have finally let down my stupid pride and have realized that I don't need to be perfect at everything the first go round!! This program is not only kicking my @$$ into shape, it is teaching me more and more about myself everyday!! It is showing me my strengths, and uncovering my weaknesses that I sooo desperately try to hide. No more!! I am not perfect, I will mess up and I will fail at something, and that is OK!! I am more happy than I have ever been in my entire life. I thank every one of my You Tube buddies, P90x, and a special someone that knows who he is!! YAY!! Life Rocks!!

I have also decided that I am going to try to start running. I have always wanted to be good at running, but I suck at it. I have always been too proud to just do it. I thought that about Yoga but I stuck with it and now I am doing so well and actually love it!! If I can do that with Yoga then I am sure I can do it with running so I am going to try running as my next endeavour!! I live in Lakeview in Chicago and I am about a block from the lake itself. There is a beautiful path that runs around the lake to go running on and I have only utilized this path once!! That one time I ran from my place to the Beach and it was amazing. I had been smoking for a little bit since then and I am a little worried about my lung capacity but I want to do this so I will!! I am taking a tip from a friend who runs, and am going to start out slow. I will probably start out alternating run/walk for a mile or so and slowly work up to running full miles!!

Let's do this!!
X - IT OUT!!!