Day 31

Week 5 - Day Skip

I haven't boarded the bus on the give up train yet but my motivation has started going downhill again. I have no idea why this happens. Grrrrr...I was in a sucky mood for a week then I turned it all around for a week and rocked it, now I am back on the moodiness. I guess because I have images of what I want to look like and what state of health I want to be in and I am definitely not close yet. I know as long as I don't give up I can get there but with my attitude being where it is, I don't know. It is 2:50 am and I haven't done my workout yet. I ate like shit today and felt it!!! I had more carbs than usual and I was dead tired all day. I wanted to workout when I had energy but that energy never came. I think I am just going to double up tomorrow to get caught up then NO more mess ups. I think its because I only have 3 days until I wanted to look at least a little better and yeah I don't see much difference. I think I am just a little disheartened and not motivated because of it...kinda like what has working out and eating right got me lately??? But on the flip side the more I mess up, the less results I will see. Of course I am way harder on myself than need be. We all slip up and my slip ups aren't even all that bad. I just need to get in control of my emotions and thoughts. LOL. Oh well. I know it will get better and I will start feeling good about myself in no time.

Stay focused and motivated and most of all,

X-IT OUT!!