A Saturday Night With Christy...

My saturday night was spent at the sporting good store getting new sneakers, and a stop watch for my jogging program. Then at midnight I proceeded to go down to the lake path and do a jogging routine wih my new purchases. It felt great and I am so glad I got new sneakers. I haven't gotten new ones in like 3 or 4 years!! That is not good for your feet by the way!! So don't wait that long!! I used to be a shoe salesperson at a sporting goods store. lol. I am really excited about this jogging program. I started out doing 2 minutes jog 1 min walk but after 20 minutes i changed it back to 1 min jog 1 min walk. I am not a runner by any means but hopefully this program will slowly ease me into running and I will adapt well to it. We shall see. I am not going to give up though. I am going to do the full 8 weeks.

(see blog a few below for jogging/walking program)

YAY!!! FINALLY!!

I guess chasing my dog around the park last night paid off because I am down 3 lbs this week!! I have a feeling the lower calories and cardio is taking its toll!! I am not doing low carb anymore either because I never seem to lose weight on low carb!! I once did Atkins and all I got from that was terribly ill. Mu ex husband and I did it for over a month and he lost and I didn't at all. I just felt so sick and gross inside. So maybe my body likes the carbs, good for me though.

Motto For Today...

Week 6 - Day 1

CHEST, SHOULDERS & TRICEPS / AB RIPPER X
So I was sooo tired after trying to run with my doggy and then losing him and trying to catch him that I didn't know if I would be able to finish this workout (see blog entry before this for my overview of today). Even though I felt crappy, depressed, and tired I still managed to push play. I knew that I wasn't feeling as strong as usual but I pressed through and did my best. I told myself that if I just finished the workout then I would do Ab Ripper in the morning. By the end of the DVD I felt guilty for even thinking that so I pressed through Ab Ripper also.

What I learned today was that no matter what kind of day I am having, I can always finish my workouts if I just believe in myself.

I get a Gold Star for today!!!

Crappy Day

I think I am cursed or something. I had the shittiest day today.

I started working on projects and couldn't concentrate because a person that I care for deeply has stopped talking to me, and by talking I mean telling me stuff about his life and what's going on. He never texts anymore and has ignored my texts. I get the feeling I should just give up. I don't understand how we could (i think) get so close then he just disapears. Oh well. Anyway I was pretty broken up about that all day...

...then a friend of mine who was being a bitch told me she didn't want to be my friend because I told her that she was being a bitch. Go figure. I thought that since we are 26 years old that she could handle the truth. She just proceeded to be a self absorbed asshole and made me feel like crap for nothing!! I really don't need that when I am trying to do school work...

...then I realized that I think I have an infection on my tonsil. It's really huge and covered in white gunky mess. No health insurance is really going to cover that!! SUPER!!

After that I decided I wanted to go jogging and figured maybe my dog would like to go. lol. so we went and we got to the beach and he started chasing something...yanked away from me and his leash broke. yep the cord snapped in half just like that. I waas due for a new one but i hadn't picked one up yet. Anyway...I had to chase him and was scared to death he would run out towards Lake Shore Drive (which is basically a highway). So we couldn't run back we had to walk and I had to drag him by what was left of the leash. Then we were close to getting back when he went running after an animal or something and the leash totally tore up my hand as it went with him. I then had to chase him again, this time a lot longer because he ran far away.

Then I got back and now I have no energy to do Chest, Shoulders, and Triceps. I just felt really depressed and wanted to change my mood by working out and all this shit happened. uuugghh. I just wanted to have a good day. :(

Grrrrrrr...

All this extra cardio and reduced calories better jump start my weight loss or I will not be a happy camper!!! Rawwwwwer!!

Week 5 - Day 6&7

Yesterday was something else. LOL. I stayed up almost all night finishing projects and stuff then I went to school for 15 hours...uuugghhh. Senior Year is a biotch!!! Expecially because every class I have this quarter are core classes where its all projects that have to be portfolio quality. So it's one project after another...Identity packets, websites, logos, campaigns, ads and more ads. It's a cool major but it's definitely a time consuming one!!

Anyway long story short I was falling asleep by the time I go home, I tried to workout but I decided it wasn't going to be that effective so I got a good night's sleep and woke up today and did Kenpo X. I still HATE it!!! Ugghh. I don't know why I dislike it so much. I think because the beginning and ending are boring. I like the kicks and they get my heart rate up but the punches and blocks don't. I have a 30 minute Kickboxing workout that kicks my ass more than Kenpo does. I think I might do that tonight. I really want to come home from school tonight and go running. I need to get me a stop watch. Timing on my phone is less than ideal. LOL. I also need to get some more protein powder.I have been out and I have not been getting nearly enough protein. I am not a big meat eater. I like chicken and turkey but thats about it. I am stopping by GNC tonight before I get home and getting both of those before I forget!!!

So In short I am using yesterday as my rest day, even though there was no resting or stretching involved, and tomorrow I will start WEEK 6!! I thought I would never finish week 5 but I did!! YAY!!

Week 5 - Day 5

Here we go back on the countdown. I have started the 5th week over for the second time now. I am glad to finally be back on track with this. No more disasters from now til the end. I might even tack on a couple extra weeks at the end just for fun.

Stay Tuned!!!

LEGS & BACK / AB RIPPER X
It has felt like ages since I have done this workout. I forgot some of the exercises that you do in it. LOL. Overal I have always liked this workout. I still fall over during the lunges with your foot up on the chair...uuugghhh. I don't think I have bad balance but I seem to have problems with that exercise.

I am starting to use my chin up bar now that Dave fixed it all up for me!! :) I can't do chin ups or pull ups or anything of the sort but I do use the chair and it seems to be working pretty well. We will see. I would love to be able to do pull ups on my own!! Hopefully someday. Maybe my next round or maybe when I do P90x+. :)

I have been using Fit Day to track my food intake and I have no problems staying in my calorie range but I need more protein and more vegetables!!! FOR SURE!! Ugghhh I always forget about vegetables. I ran out of protein powder and its amazing to see how little protein I get when I don't have it!!! I love being able to calculate all this stuff, it really puts everything into perspective and just makes you more aware of what you are putting into your body.

Cardio Makes Me Feel Super!!

I was supposed to do Yoga today and I was feeling a little too fat for Yoga today. I really wanted more of a cardio workout so I put in my Jillian Michaels Cardio Kickbox workout and let me tell you...I forgot what a cardio workout that is. Yeah it isn't an hour long like P90x vids but it is non-stop moving and is just a good cardio workout. I was sweating and breathing harder than I have in most P90x workouts.

I really hate doing cardio but it makes me feel soooo good!!

Super Duper!! Since I need to get rid of more fat, I need it!!

:)

Excited to start the Run/Walk - 8 Week Program I found on Runnersworld.com!!

CLICK ON IMAGE TO SEE IT LARGER

Feel Sooooo Much Better!!!

Working out just makes me feel good!!! I am going to be less worried about how long it takes me to finish P90x and more interested in getting my body to where I want it. I think focusing on others progress and comparing it to my own is very detrimental to my success. I feel like I should be at a different level than I am, and if I am not where I think I should be then I end up quitting.

Being thrown off the P90x wagon for 2 weeks did a number on my self-esteem and my mood. I felt pretty much worthless and like I was a huge failure. Now that I am back on track I see people that started after me doing better than me and it totally wrecks me. I know if I didn't succumb to the pressure to fall off the wagon then I would probably be in a lot better shape right now and I wouldn't feel like total crap.

But I did fall off the wagon and now I just have to deal withit, get back on, and pick up the slack. I am going to eat the way that I know works for me because the p90x food thing has not been working. I don't know what it is but I just don't feel like I have any energy, maybe lack of carbs. I nomally eat really healthy so I am just going to follow my own plan that I know works for me. I am also starting a running plan. I have always wanted to run and never thought I could. I think it is because I want to be able to just go out the first time and run a few miles. Now that I know that isn't doable and will actually turn me off to running, I have downloaded a running plan off a running website. It gets you ready to run for a full 30 minutes in a couple months. It is really what I need because if I can ease myself into it gradually and become good at it then I will definitely stick with it. It is one of the cheapest workouts ever and you can do it anywhere, all you need is shoes. :)

I have also been looking into some upcoming races and even training sessions for the upcoming Chicago Marathon and Half-Marathon...we will see how ambitious I get.

So I just did my
BACK & BICEPS / AB RIPPER X
workout and tomorrow I will be starting my easy Run/Walk program to get me ready to run a 5K in 2 months time. From the couch to a 5K!! YAY!! I will keep you updated on how I do.

Just a confused rant, you don't have to read it...

sometimes I think i know about the things that are going on in my life, and sometimes i am just really confused. i HATE being confused about things. i like to know exactly what is going on and what's going to be going on especially if its something important to me. i just feel like my life is hanging in the balance and i am just waiting for something to happen. i just constantly feel like im waiting for good stuff to finally happen. after going through so much bad stuff i feel like this universe owes me some friggin happiness. i know that i need to make things happen in my life but i can only do so much then the rest is dependent upon other factors that i cannot control. i just have been so shaky and feel like i have been waiting for my life to happen for so long.

sometimes i feel like i cannot keep waiting or keep surrounding myself with people that don't give me answers, don't supply me with the things i need, and people who just keep me in the waiting/confused state. i don't know. maybe i just want to know what's going to happen so that if something isn't going to work then i can have a backup plan and not just be blindsided...like i usually am. i want more control but i don't get it.

2nd Day of Week 5 Redo

Ok so I thought after I came back from being on and mostly off for 2 weeks that I would be really rusty...well I am not that bad. Granted I am a little more soft and flabby but I actually felt rested and like I had more energy than when i did when I was pushing it doing P90x everyday. Who knows what that means. LOL. Hopefully it doesn't mean I will be more inclined to fall off the wagon again.

Anyway. I am really glad to be getting back on track, and to all my You Tube peeps I haven't forgot about ya...I will make a update after this first week back. :)

Anyway I have a crap ton of work to do for school so I am off...

Goodnight and Good Luck!!

Ummmmm...I lied... I am back for good NOW!!!

Jeeeeez!!!! I have been derailed for WAY too long!!! I got back on track then I got clotheslined off the wagon again. It's amazing how when the one person that motivates you the most cannot do the workouts it makes you fall off that much easier. It just kinda makes you feel like its ok to not be so strict on the program because they are on a hiatus and they still look great. LOL. Oh well. NO MORE OF THIS BS!!! I am back on track.

I had a great couple of weekends though. Having a friend in town is just a mood booster even though we didn't eat and workout like we should have.

:)

I am not sure what workout I should do tonight. I did Shoulders and all that the other day but I should start Week 5 over, I think I am just going to continue with Plyo tonight. Keep me on track guys!!!

WEEK 5 REDO!!!

I AM BACK ON TRACK!!!

I started Week 5 over today!!! I have been eating like crap and not doing my workouts the way I should so Week 5 here I come again!! I didn't want to miss any of these newer workouts so I wanted to redo this week.

I did...
CHEST, SHOULDERS & TRICEPS / AB RIPPER X
...today (errrr yesterday)!!

LOVE THIS WORKOUT MORE THAN ANYTHING!!! I just wish it would burn fat too. LOL. I think tomorrow I am going to get up early and try some running, I am getting sick of Cardio X and it's getting nicer outside.

:)

OK BACK UP...REVERSE

I am starting Week 5 over again. I had an amazing weekend but I feel that I haven't gotten enough out of Week 5. I just feel like I didn't give it my all so tomorrow I will be starting the week over. This week should be awesome. We will see.

Day 34

Week 5 - Day 5

I am sucking on this week so badly, I may just redo it. I am not doing as badly as I may think but I just feel so out of it. Grrrrrr...I think it may have a lot to do with other people's motivation as well. On You Tube there are a lot of slackers lately and everyone seems to have an excuse for skipping workouts so I have been less than motivated. I think I am going to wean myself off of You Tube a little bit because of it. I just don't feel as motivated on there as I used to be. I need to start doing this for myself and trying to gather motivation from within instead of from others that are unreliable. Sometimes I just don't see the point of trying to motivate everyone when I am not feeling motivated. Blahhh. I am not into trying to gain popularity on there, all I want is to want to workout. All I want is to get into shape and have it be as painless as possible.

Just my thoughts for this morning.

It is 2:20 am and I am just now getting myself in the mood to put in my workout for today. Uuugghhhh why do I procrastinate sooo much???!!!!

LEGS & BACK / AB RIPPER X

Day 33

Week 5 - Day 4

i have sucked this week...at the blog and at working out. I can't believe it. I have this great thing going on tomorrow and I soooo could have benn looking better than this. I really have no excuses, I just haven't been feeling well. I skipped out on Yoga today and did Cardio instead. Oh well. I was having a fat day and thought it would be more beneficial to how I was feeling.

Day 32

Week 5 - Day 3

I forgot to blog about this day!! OOOOOPS!!

BACK & BICEPS / AB RIPPER X
This workout rocked!! I loved it. There was a lot of bicep exercises for sure. I think my biceps and shoulders are my fave muscles to workout!! I didn't want to workout but I just did it and I felt good!! Woo Hoo.

:)

Day 31

Week 5 - Day Skip

I haven't boarded the bus on the give up train yet but my motivation has started going downhill again. I have no idea why this happens. Grrrrr...I was in a sucky mood for a week then I turned it all around for a week and rocked it, now I am back on the moodiness. I guess because I have images of what I want to look like and what state of health I want to be in and I am definitely not close yet. I know as long as I don't give up I can get there but with my attitude being where it is, I don't know. It is 2:50 am and I haven't done my workout yet. I ate like shit today and felt it!!! I had more carbs than usual and I was dead tired all day. I wanted to workout when I had energy but that energy never came. I think I am just going to double up tomorrow to get caught up then NO more mess ups. I think its because I only have 3 days until I wanted to look at least a little better and yeah I don't see much difference. I think I am just a little disheartened and not motivated because of it...kinda like what has working out and eating right got me lately??? But on the flip side the more I mess up, the less results I will see. Of course I am way harder on myself than need be. We all slip up and my slip ups aren't even all that bad. I just need to get in control of my emotions and thoughts. LOL. Oh well. I know it will get better and I will start feeling good about myself in no time.

Stay focused and motivated and most of all,

X-IT OUT!!

Day 30

Week 5 - Day 2

PLYOMETRICS
I love this workout but this week I just seem to be losing motivation again. I think it is because I have been feeling bad health wise. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that I am not sleeping all that well or all that much. lol. Also my stomach seems to be reacting negatively to protein bars. I have been getting insane stomach pains after eating them so I guess I am going to stop all that. I have been finding it hard to eat much at all beacause of the pains. My workouts don't suffer that much but my body probably is. I still workout at high intensity so thats a plus. I am supposed to take Day 30 pics but I feel bloated today maybe tomorrow will be a better day for that. We will see. I still think I am just going to forego showing photos until the end.

:)

Day 29

Week 5 - Day 1

CHEST, SHOULDERS & TRICEPS / AB RIPPER X
What a cool workout!! love it!! I still can't believe that there are more styles of pushups we haven't done!! I suck at pushups but hopefully I will only get better. I feel like I lost a lot of strength during the recovery week. Some of the tricep exercises, I felt like I was doing for the very first time...uuuugghh. oh well. we will see what happens. I did do a lot better at Ab Ripper yet again so my abs gained some more strength which I am happy for the most!! Who doesn't want some ripped abs?? I know I do!! I can't wait!! MORE CARDIO!! I missed my extra cardio session this morning so I will do Cardio X when I wake up and then Plyo at night.

Here we go!! Week 5 is in the works!!
Sooo excited to be doing weight training again.

X-It Out!!

Day 28

Week 4 - Day 7

Last day of my recovery week!! Tomorrow I start new weight training workouts!!! YEAH!!! I am excited!! Chest, Shoulders, and Triceps!! My fave muscles!!

Anyway I know I said that my muscle gaining and fat losing has caught up to itself well like I said I have only lost 3 lbs as it shows on the scale, but I have lost almost 2 inches off my waist and 1 inch off my hips so I am incredibly happy about that!! It hasn't even been a month yet so I need not worry about that stuff after my body gets on a roll I am sure the fat will just come off in no time!!

Here is a pic of how my upper ab muscles are shaping up, I am pretty excited even though you can see them due to the lighting. LOL. I just need to lose the buffer over them so you can see them better!! Overall I am very happy where this is heading!! You can kinda see some lats coming in too!! I still have like 8 weeks to go!! Let's do this!!

:)

Day 27

Week 4 - Day 6

I only slept for 2 hours wednesday night then I had school from 8am - 8pm yesterday. By the time I got home I was dragging and did not want to suck on Yoga so I decided to flip the Stretch/Rest day with my Yoga day. I tried to do the Cardio X video but I fell out and decided to get some sleep instead!!!

I also cheated a little...ooooooh don't tell anyone.

HAHAHA

I felt ok about it because I didn't go over my calories for the day, not by a long shot. I did have 1 scoop of Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream from Baskin Robbins because it was 31¢ scoop day!!! YAY!! 1 scoop of any ice cream for 31¢!! My friends and I are poor college students so it was rockin'!! Anyway, that was my cheat. I have been doing completely awesome otherwise!! Oh and just to let everyone know the weight loss has finally started. I know I have been a muscle gaining machine but the muscle gaining and fat losing has caught up to itself!! Woo Hoo.